He asked me if it would make me happy and I said 'yes'. "Well then," he said, "it's worth a shot!" I am so glad that I decided to listen to him. I started to believe in myself and saw the value in what I was doing. I understood that I wasn't the most stellar photographer but I knew that with a growth mindset that I could continue to learn and improve. It's important to understand your weaknesses but it's more important to know that they are able to be mastered with some time and dedication. I've spent the last year studying photographers that I find inspiring and taking any and all classes that will give me the tools I need to succeed
My husband will never understand what he has done for me in this life. He took me from simply going through the motions of life and letting my surrounding control me to taking charge of who I am and what I want to become. He has made me see the beauty in all the little things that happen in a day. I am truly grateful for having that one person in my life who believes in me and supports me even in those moments that I don't believe in myself.
If I could offer any advice it would be to find that person. That person who is your biggest cheerleader and doesn't hesitate to put you on a pedestal in order to help you rise above your own negativity. With time, it penetrates your own body and you begin to see in yourself what that person has seen all along. Our society tells us that it's wrong to think highly of ourselves because it comes across as conceited. I no longer buy that. I tell myself every day that I am great at what I do and will be even better tomorrow because I know that I am putting in the work that is required.
Every now and then, the old me starts to creep in. My self doubt overtakes me and I start to slip into my old habits. In those moments, I grab my camera, hop in my car, and drive until I find some place in South Jersey that I have never been to. I sit and take in my surroundings and push those negative thoughts right out of my head.